Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you
So I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
Leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape
To remind me that I'm alone
Play movies in my head
That make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride
A nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you
Will you never call again
And never say that you loved me
Just to put it in my face
And never try to reach me
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And I'm sober now for three whole months
It's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
Is the one thing I won't touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you
For holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so far away, that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart, to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
In other ways hard to swallow
You gotta hate me so you, you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you, and wave
I'm kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I made
And like a baby boy, I never knew how to be a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry, and I held your face in my hands
And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away"
Could you please bring back a smile, make it shine, like it used to be
And that's when she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
In other ways hard to swallow
You gotta hate me so you, you can finally
You can see what's good for you
For you
'Cause even now so, this is all for you
Yeah, this is all for you