Ambiguity

Drove out to our favourite place in the country
Reclined the car seats into their lying position
Turn the lights down low, Turn up the radio
I gave myself to you
Wish I was a virgin, not a slut at age 15

I continued on my path of self discovery
More like the path of self destruction
Went for your best friend
Went to a secret hideaway
Only three words are needed to describe how this story ends

Then I loved you, now I hate you
I loved you, it's all the same
Then I loved you, now I hate you
I loved you, and now I can't even say your name

I never knew the consequences of my actions that night
I felt so empty inside, as though I'd submitted my spirit
Just one night to you, a universe to me
I couldn't see what the truth was
Nothing more than a bet, I was just your pet

No one understood, I kept it deep inside
All the pain that I felt
My world was crashing down
You both laughed at my tears, how could I have been so naive?
I never wanna feel that same misery

Then I loved you, now I hate you
I loved you, it's all the same
Then I loved you, now I hate you
I loved you, and now I can't even say your name

Now they all wonder why I'm so cold hearted
I loved someone once, and never want to love again
I shield myself from it, love seems like such a trap
I was caged, I couldn't fly, I ran away, I wanted to die

I loved me, you just hated me
I loved you, it's all the same
And I loved you, still don't wanna hate you

I loved you, and now I can't even say your name
Then I loved you, you just hated me
I loved you, and it still hurts to hate you
I can't even say your name

Copyright HER Records, SOCAN, SAC 2004.