Ever Is a Long Time (Ever Is No Time At All)

What's the point in trying?
I just fall behind
Spend minutes just to pay for bleary eyes
Wouldn't you rather die than be on my mind?
It hurts my head to think about you dead
But I do it all the time

I could be a soul to keep
Or I could keep on living soullessly
I could be a soul to keep
Or I could keep on living soullessly

Drawing all the curtains to hide from ghosts
That whisper about the things we're scared of most
Chain link fences make us feel safe
From shady parts of everything
That I've made real to me

You screamed "holy shit"
The wind swept you off your feet
It sure as hell wasn't me, I swear to god it was just
Two nights, a cloud of smoke exhaled from my still choking lungs
I couldn't move, I couldn't see
That you're the breath I shouldn't breathe

Shallow breath breathes
Air so heavy

I went down to the bottom of the river
And plant myself in a watery grave
'Cause when I'm down I can't see the surface
Just unknowns and answers I can't see
So I let go of your tiny little fingers
Just to say that I couldn't be saved
'Cause when I'm gone I won't forget a single
Bit of all those long-gone memories

Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own

Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own