Hollow

Since the first time I felt this,
this recursive feeling.
(I'm) so tired of this fight, so tired of letting go.
I thought it was good for me,
even if it was hurting me
inside the chest,
inside the heart.

I'm a slave
to this empty room,
that makes me feel as though
I am fucking dead.
I hate the world that made me hate myself,
I hate those days I'm trying to forget.
But memories remain, they are buried in me.

And now, I have to find the
person I used to be
'cause growing up I've lost the nerve of letting go,
insecurities and worries that once I have ignored, now
are choking me.

I've become a shadow of myself.
Deah!
A shadow of myself.
A silent sound
That steals my sleep,
The reason why
These demons are here.

Take me back to the ocean
Where this shipwreck lay so sweet, to my eyes.
I am fainting, I am falling.
Tears will fall from my empty eyes,
Tears will fall from my blinded eyes.
I am fainting, I am falling.
This decay,
I never thought it would impact meso strongly.
I hurt my friends, I hurt my family
who slowly started to leave me alone but I never blamed them
'cause the blame was all on me and now
I realise this.
I hurt my friends, I hurt my family but now it's too fucking late
to find shallow excuses, empty excuses. As empty as me.
Day by day
I feel more hollow.
I'm sick of fighting
This weight.
Can you fix me now?

Take me back to the ocean
Where this shipwreck lay so sweet, to my eyes.
I am fainting, I am fainting.
Tears will fall from my empty eyes,
Tears will fall from my blinded eyes.
I am fainting, I am fainting
Alone.