Lost Boys

"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me, "Away from all of reality."

Yo, right before 2005 my father up and died
Never knew what's up inside, said he was cool but he musta lied
Mustered up the strength because "I must survive," muscles aching, so much pain I see inside my mother's eyes
Mother why? Why did he die? Why did he leave us?
Ain't we some good believers? We always put our faith in Jesus
He heals diseases, man, I take it back
He took a wonderful life and made it wack, fade to black
In my father's house we stayin at, we facin' lack
She start to disrespect my mother, I ain't taking that, take it back
We made a pact but girl I'm gonna break it
I do what's best for Jason, she started doing some investigation
You turned my friends against me, you had my father's blessing
He even lent you money, man I'm bout to learn a lesson
And I'm gonna have to learn it on my own, I'm all alone
My daddy's gone, and my family's torn, 2005 and I felt the scorn

We fought about it one evening late
Then I brushed it aside, like nothing
Debate within my brain, between the
Grains of sand...
Time will pass, and she'll forgive, and
I'll forget, its nothing big, nothing to
Be concerned about, love is bigger
Than the both of us, I doubt it will
Linger past the fight
But nights and days passed, and she's depressed
I broke the plain of trust and now it's dead
Inside her chest, I can't resuscitate the heart
The part is played
I slayed us both
By letting too much time pass
Laziness, and avoidance killed the dove
And filled the void with doubt, and now
It rots... the consequence of
Abandonment, speak up, or lose her
That's accurate...

Me and you can work this out
If you can find inside
Me and you can work this out
Don't forget, or abandon me...

My dad left this world at age 37
Didn't expect to leave a lifetime of questions
Thought I got my lessons, they've all come in sessions
I make my confessions, each one is getting deeper
Tried to be a teacher looking for a leader
Siblings my seniors, mom the cheerleader
Mom got remarried, Mark tried to carry
The burden left behind from the father we buried
No way to understand the weight of a missing man
Or calculate missed time on a second hand
No chance to plan, no way to say goodbye
A lifetime of why and an occasional cry
Too many goodbyes in this life add up
Dips and ties things end abrupt
My soul erupts with a proper corrective
I'm trying to bring myself a fresh perspective