Destructive

Let me die, a fake name
Is what I've got, yeah, life's not great
Like what they're saying
Fucking liars, lying to my face
Guilt is flowing through my veins
Filled with so much emptiness, I face
Every day with a new disgrace
I might just say the wrong phrase
Every fucking body in this world knows I'm insane
That's for every attempt I've done for tryna getting rid of this pain
Why in heaven am I here?
You know, tiredness's the only motherfucking thing I feel (Ayy, ayy, ayy, I said fuck 'em)
I forgive you motherfuckers for being naive
I'm actually so fucking afraid they might leave
From my soul, I'm standing on my balcony
The night breeze is so cold, I feel alone
Ain't nobody can save me from myself
Save me from my nightmares (Ayy, ayy, ayy, I said fuck 'em)

(Ayy, ayy, ayy, I said fuck 'em)
Fuck this life I'm out
I'm an outsider with big enough fire
To spark an entire world, a fighter
Too stubborn to change
I wanted everything to be a little bit brighter
I need to hold on a little tighter
Inspired by Budd Dwyer
A writer with no pen, the nights were frozen
Too uninspired, but the desire to get better was bigger
Than to be lazy, too sweaty but there's no AC
I'm beginning to 'come crazy
Lately I've been feeling hasty
Maybe it's supposed to be empty (Ayy, ayy, ayy, I said fuck 'em)
The thought is too scary for me
Bury me beneath rocks when death takes me
Embrace me, befo' I'm dead, baby
I guess I am crazy
That makes me insane with a face in vain
Don't get tied up in knots again
I hate to see you that way when
You sit on pins and needles (Ayy, ayy, ayy, I said fuck 'em)
Needless to say, my friend
I don't need help, I indeed am melancholy
But no need to worry though, I've left the body
Am I soon to leave the party?
Did I miss all the fun stuff?
This was my choice, none of y'all to blame
I'll just sit filled with so much shame (Ayy, ayy, ayy, I said fuck 'em)

I said fuck 'em