Monster

I think I saw a monster
But they swear it isn't there
Mama told me don't be scared
When I told her
I'm a mother monster
And I see it every time
When I'm looking in my eyes
I see a lost soul
Oh I'm a mother
I'm a mother monster
I thought I told ya

Look you dealing with a monster
Don't get trapped in the belly of the beast now
Few girls been there never got out
Believe you me you dealing with a monster
And you think we gone last
But I don't think that
I've seen this all in the past

I'm a monster
I'm a mother
I thought I told ya
Oh I'm a mother monster
I'm a mother monster
I thought I told ya

I abandoned my emotions
Just enough to keep me going
Out in West Virginia hoping
This drink in my cup wont leave me lonely
I haven't been sober since twenty ten
That year I died a thousand times
If you rewind my life and take a look inside
You'd see trying time after trying time that's why I'm out my mind
This is something like a sorry in advance
Mr. destined to ruin your plans
I aint trying to be your man I'd probably up the chance
Spent a decade lit on some renegade
And I'm still faded
I try to move on but I have the same nightmares
So I wake up from the same
I stay with the same demons
And they keep on getting meaner
Cause they can tell that you want to leave me
And they have fun trying to get between us
You gotta believe it
I danced with the Devil you seen it
I said I'll be back by the weekend I'm leaving
As you were in the bathroom screaming
You're a monster