Deadlights

I'm in a Florence cathedral searching for reasons why
My body's broken i'm hopeless i'm feeling crucified
This ancient vessel is tainted staining the glass with lies
I walk out slow as the bell tolls
I leave the match behind
I bore these mental burdens couldn't pass over the weight
Search for answers from the pastor as he skimmed collection plates
Gotta fill this void with something
Gotta wash my hands of faith
I need passage out this castle before this check turns into mate

Then I found my way inside the deadlights
I would be dead right?
I ain't got my head right
Flood these gates
I wanna wash me
I am the Dead Sea drowning all you zombies
Sick of you
Your dreams are fraudulent
My path is dominent
Paper man, we're opposite
Watch your step or you'll get stepped on
I am the red sun
Drinking you like red rum

I've been awake for a week now
Maybe this weakness has been
What's been eating me alive but I'm too stubborn to reach out
Shoot shit and rebound
Staring down the barrel
We dare to exist with no protection from peril
In the Ritalin era as if these pills can repair us
I've been sipping on amaro like my life depended on it
I just want closure or something
Just want someone to care
Summoned Souls at the function you better look out for mirrors

You not sad you just addicted to attention it's weird
I've been slumped inside the trenches trynna conquer my fears
Fake depressed I see you grin behind those crocodile tears
Wouldn't wish this misery on anybody I swear
But now the worst is yet to come and I'll be damned if I let it stop me
Just sit back and wait for it?
Nah that's not what my momma taught me
Thought it was all my fault
Often I call the shots but I'm falling into the pit
Got me mixing fernet with coffee
Resulting in a transgression of all the things that I should have done
Maiden done came from nothing so it's too late to pull the plug
Stone island thug
Never gave a fuck about all of em
I've seen enough
Coven the only thing believable