Moment

Suicidal like "who am I though?
I fucking hate you" that's my newest motto
I could choose the change but I choose the bottle
If I fall asleep I'll see a new tomorrow
Yeah

Cause you don't feel the pain that I've been feeling inside
I'm fucking losing my mind

They're lookin' at me like I shot the Sheriff
Cause I got too drunk and I'm not embarrassed
But I've been depressed and that's not apparent
Unless I say it out loud, so they all can hear it
Yeah

And I don't wanna seem like all I want is attention
You seem to think I'm pretendin'

Now all I see is these shards of glass
So I walk in the bar and I start a tab
I got a soft soul but a hardened past
Tell the waiter up front he can call my cab
I'm a hypocrite, an insomniac
I'm a piece of shit but I honor that
I got mental problems and it's got me mad
But you seem to think that they aren't as bad
As I think they are
What kind of Cole is that?
You don't know what it's like
You ain't thought to ask
But you ain't me and you never will be
The devil inside was sent to kill me
If you really care I expect the real thing
I feel they won't ever get the message
Will they?
It's all good, I won't get my hopes up
I'm drunk as fuck but I think I'm sober

I been all alone lately
Feel like I might go crazy
I must the only one that feels this way
Lock up all the doors baby
Disconnect the phone baby
Block out all the noise and I might be okay
Just let me have my moment
I really need my moment
I gotta have my moment
I really need my moment
I need a moment of silence

I found a bottle back in grade seven
A young desperado, I had to make effort
My foot's on the gas, not the break pedal
I just put on ice, so it tastes better, yeah

I guess I'm just confused 'cause I see all the potential
But lately I'm going mental (I don't know what to do)

Who'd a thought that I'd get this nervous
The lifestyle I lead's not picture perfect
The hear what I say but they miss the purpose
Pour the shot in my glass 'til I hits the surface
That hotter inside I should lift the curtains
But today I just feel like a different person
I keep tellin' myself that it isn't urgent
If you dig what I'm sayin' you should feel my words then

It's obvious to me that I'm the root of the issue
Don't make me use it against you (Cause I will)

Cause when it back fire, it just disappear
I'm way too anxious, I live in fear
I see it from a far and it's crystal clear
But know the objects closer than it appears

When I'm fucked up I feel okay
But the next morning there's no way
That I could feel good and it's so strange
So I do it all again 'till it go away
I don't need friends, I got Jose
And this red cup and this O.J
It's what it's, it'll take a while
So I shake these hands and I fake the smile

I been all alone lately
Feel like I might go crazy
I must the only one that feels this way
Lock up all the doors, baby
Disconnect the phone, baby
Block out all the noise and I might be okay
Just let me have my moment
I really need my moment
I gotta have my moment
I really need my moment
I need a moment of silence