Gratitude

I'm supposed to be alone
And I'm supposed to like it
Maybe you can relate?

I was the "solitary soldier"
That was the name I gave to me
To face the battles of life on my own

I cry when I sense your loneliness
I don't know why
Does it open wide a door I locked inside
Under the guise of independence?

Lovers just like TV
Two lives tainted by a recent tragedy

I'm afraid to say I love you
But I won't say I'm sorry
Instead I...

Thank you for all of your respect and loyalty
And all the little things that make me feel like royalty
Thank you for telling me just the right thing at the right time
When I needed healing in the darkest hours of the night
Thank you for the words I sorely needed to hear
For permission to feel the rage welled up throughout the years
And most of all
Thank you for modeling this sense of gratitude
By thanking me for being me and never acting like I owe you

I don't want you to protect me
I want you to walk beside me
Watch me get hurt
I just want to know that you're still there to love me

I feel guilty, I'm a burden
But I won't say I'm sorry
I quit that game
Found something else to beat that life of shame

Though you think your face is stone cold
And I've agreed
Even my father's eyes have never looked at me quite that way

Maybe that's why
You burned right through my armor
The compassion was so foreign
It melted steel away

I'm afraid to say I love you
But I won't say I'm sorry
Instead I...

Thank you for expressing so much empathy to me
For choosing me, which I know can't be a choice you made lightly
Thank you for putting up with all the burdens that I bear
The distance and the sorrows and the times of my despair
Thank you for the shift in how I view humanity
Most people are shit, and now I do my own thing
And most of all
Thank you for modeling this sense of gratitude
By thanking me for being me and never acting like I owe you

Thank you for all of your respect and loyalty
And all the little things that make me feel like royalty
Thank you for telling me just the right thing at the right time
When I needed healing in the darkest hours of the night
Thank you for the words I've waited all my life to hear
That no one needs to fix me... I'm fine as I appear
And most of all
Thank you for modeling this sense of gratitude
By thanking me and never acting like I owe you

Even if we see one day it's destiny
For each of us to go our own way and be solitary
I will retain this confidence and gratitude
I won't forget the lessons that I've learned because of you
Thanks for showing me I'm not as broken as they say
For teaching me how to cope with nightmares in the day
And thank you for
Thanking and loving me for what comes from me naturally
Please come to me when you're in need because
I owe you