Headed Toward Calabasas

Some driving in the car shit, like I'm on shit
Thoughts flowing, clumsy with the kitchen faucet
Woke up feeling like somehow I done lost it
Working everyday, how much is it really costing
Ariana say working everyday is awesome
But are you really gaining if the records never cross 'em
Had to pause cuz I really had to think about it
I'd be lying if I said that didn't doubt it
Many times, many days man I think about it
Are my efforts doing less, am I doing worse
Hoping that I get some insight as I do this the verse
It's never been about claiming that I do it first
It's been about elevating what I'm doing first
Paying with my love and I hope the world reimburse
Trynna find my footing like I'm on a ledge
Going through some old stuff I got underneath the bed
Wondering if I was happier at home instead
Was I doing better when I took my time instead
Wanna say yes but the stats say no
Fans miss the old me, I wonder where did they go
All had they had to do was share, it don't cost a peso
Telling me they love me when we face to face tho
I ain't got the nerve, to put the blame on someone else
All me, I'm reason that I'm sitting on a shelf
I'm just playing both sides, thinking to myself
As I'm on this drive, headed toward Calabasas
Yeezy headquarters there and I got the address
Hoping that I catch 'Ye, tell 'em I'm the baddest
Scared to death that he might just say my music average
Even though in my heart I know I'm doing damage
A nigga doing every single thing he can
Cuz a co-sign can turn a no-name into the man
I believe in what is written in my plans
But sometimes I wonder if it's through somebody's helping hands
So I'm sending emails like a mad man
That can drive a man mad when you never hear back
I know my work great, I don't wanna hear that
I wanna hear that you wanna help the world hear that
This the shit that's goin' through my head
Feeling really stuck as I'm trynna move ahead