Narcissist

I got a problem that's hard to fix
I gotta be honest, I'm a narcissist
When somebody says I'm dope as shit or that my arts legit
Then the dopamine starts to hit

And I thought it was my artist wish but
Ever since I was a kid, my conceitedness was hard to miss
In grade school I would throw a tantrum
Even smack a bitch
Cause I needed to be the smartest kid

And all the hacks would attack armed with whips and bad words
Everybody laughed at the abjectly sad nerd
I had to prove I was better so I put in the effort to be cleverer
But I think I had it backwards

Now I'm doing shows east to west and
They shower me with praise, say I'm gifted, X Men
I question it, because my former best friend
Told me I should stop surrounding myself with yes men

I stare at my reflection in the water woah
Tell me if I'm in too deep now
You make me feel like flowers in the sun
But if I grant you too much power then you're gonna make me drown
I stare at my reflection in the water woah
Am I really in too deep now
You make me feel like flowers in the sun
But if I grant you too much power then you're gonna make me drown

Ohhh
You're so hard to quit
Ohhh
Cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
It's all part of it, I won't call it quits, cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
You're so hard to quit
Ohhh
Cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
It's all part of it, I won't call it quits, cause I'm a narcissist

They say I have a raging ego
Maybe that's equivalent to hating people
I say I'm equal but I think I'm better
I leave my friends in the gutter while I race for the cheddar
And whether that's a bad thing for a rat on the wheel
I do it anyway cause I don't give a crap how they feel
Climb social ladders in a search for glamour
Only ever fuck a man who has mass appeal

Or at least, that's what he said of me
He said to me "Lex, you lack empathy"
Though I try my best to act sensibly
There's some truth to that claim and it plagues me endlessly

I love my brain but I hate my feelings
My ability to spend them has reached a ceiling,
I'm turning into the character I wrote and I'm trapped
Could I really be a sociopath?

I stare at my reflection in the water woah
Tell me if I'm in too deep now
You make me feel like flowers in the sun
But if I grant you too much power then you're gonna make me drown
I stare at my reflection in the water woah
Am I really in too deep now
You make me feel like flowers in the sun
But if I grant you too much power then you're gonna make me drown

Ohhh
You're so hard to quit
Ohhh
Cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
It's all part of it, I won't call it quits, cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
You're so hard to quit
Ohhh
Cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
It's all part of it, I won't call it quits, cause I'm a narcissist

And it's getting to my head
All the things that you have said
From the second that we met
All the praise I can't forget
Hope I haven't been misled yeah

I stare at my reflection in the water woah
Tell me if I'm in too deep now
You make me feel like flowers in the sun
But if I grant you too much power then you're gonna make me drown
I stare at my reflection in the water woah
Am I really in too deep now
You make me feel like flowers in the sun
But if I grant you too much power then you're gonna make me drown

Ohhh
You're so hard to quit
Ohhh
Cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
It's all part of it, I won't call it quits, cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
You're so hard to quit
Ohhh
Cause I'm a narcissist
Ohhh
It's all part of it, I won't call it quits, cause I'm a narcissist