Private Thoughts

Yeah
It's kinda crazy
Haven't talked to you in like two or three years or something
But it's whatever

Been a minute since I've really been feeling a woman
Someone with some spirit
Got a vibe that make me tune in
I don't want to fear it but I know these people turn quick
Internet got everybody looking for a new dick
Or a new chick
Yeah I'm not clueless
We all do this
Loyal ones can turn to Judas if they living fruitless
I ain't wanna question who you got up in your dm's
If there's some messages I ain't even wanna see 'em
Ain't got time to be checking in on some bs
Which is ironic 'cause I always used to go and do this
Probably why you got sick of me and would always loose it
I mean you did nothing wrong
So why I keep accusing
And I just keep on loosing
Why you gotta be so bad I can't move on to new shit
You been moving on and I've been stuck eyeing your movement
Now the only time I talk to you is through the music

So I, I, I gotta know
Is there anything that I can do
Know you went and you got a man
I don't expect you to understand
Don't wanna waste your time, yeah
But I've been wasting time, yeah
Moving 'round the city now
Hoping you might come around

Habitually forgetting all our history
Remind myself that you don't mean shit to me
Or is it that I don't mean shit to you
Guess that's what happens when you get something new
But memories can never be fully forgotten
And it's got to the point where they stick with me constant
Like that time we missed our test in economics
Took a flight down to Dallas
Chasing dreams was our only option
Still get the emails from Reunion Tower
It's like they reminding me at every hour
All I gotta do is hit unsubscribe
Guess I enjoy the thoughts of those nights
Fuck it there I go again
Remembering all the things you probably find irrelevent
Now we never talk
Cause we can't get past the elephant in the room
Or maybe its too soon
Not for me but I guess for you like
I'd like to think that I could just give it up
You the first thing on my mind when Im waking up
Somehow my dreams always give you a role
And that's something that ain't in my control

So I, I, I gotta know
Is there anything that I can do
Know you went and you got a man
I don't expect you to understand
Don't wanna waste your time, yeah
But I've been wasting time, yeah
Moving 'round the city now
Hoping you might come around

Lately I've been feeling like my best ever
Use my past to go and make myself better
But the shit that still 'gon keep me up at night
Is knowing that you never saw my best ever
Its whatever
Supposably you on to something better
According to you IG pictures
Look like things are going great
And I genuinely say that I hope they are
But I also wonder if its all a facade
I mean what are the odds that it's 'gon last forever
And it ain't 'gon fall apart
It's been just over a year
I mean that's barely a start
It can't always be good
I know it's got to be hard
Or maybe y'all never part
It's just weird being stuck up in this situation
Thought that seeing you happy would give me liberation
But separation from you brings desperation to me
Hoping that something 'gon happen that bring you back here to me
I know that's just some wishful thinking
But I've seen crazier happen when people are patient
And that's just the battle cause I want it now
And I ain't wanna wait to see what's gonna happen
The unknown is where all of the fear lies
Like what if he already know your ring size
And he been planning to get down on one knee
And you actually do it
Man I wouldn't believe it
Think the problem is I ain't getting out the crib
But what's the point when all I need is here at the crib
Focused in on my dreams
Planning out all the schemes
I ain't got no time to waste
This here is my everything
Or is that just what I say
To pass time in the day
When I ain't got nothing to say
And get you out of the way
Its funny how you ain't even anywhere near
But you always in my way
Tried finding you in other people too
Hate to admit it but I know it's true
Thought the love I found was real fasho
'Till I realized I was looking for you

So I, I, I gotta know
Is there anything that I can do
Know you went and you got a man
I don't expect you to understand
Don't wanna waste your time, yeah
But I've been wasting time, yeah
Moving 'round the city now
Hoping you might come around

So I, I, I gotta know
Is there anything that I can do
Know you went and you got a man
I don't expect you to understand