Don't Blame Yourself

You interpret the things around you
Through the pain that other people gave you
You gotta learn that early or it's gonna be hard
Sometimes I wish I could just shut off
So I didn't have to make your life suck

The road to depression is paved with good intentions
But it's not enough to be exposed and disposed of
Neglect is not a synonym for tough love
I want to smother every bit of negativity I hold
What would be left and would it be worth keeping at all?

I had lost my will to live
Which made me lose my will to give
Which put me in a place where I could no longer complain
That I wasn't getting enough
That I wasn't getting enough
I wasn't getting enough

As fate would have it
Being ashamed for a mistaken face
Is a mistake I'll never make again
Talk about justice and expect someone to take the fall, real and true
But we're crushed when they never really do

You tell me all the reasons you hate me
And it feels like you're listing off
The symptoms of a borderline personality
And I know I am not tethered
To all the behaviors or the thoughts

I know one day I could rise above it all
But for now my illness makes people think I really suck
And I guess for a couple more years I need to suck it up
Need to suck it up
Need to suck it up
Need to suck it up
Need to suck it up