Better Off Dead

I woke up surprised and disappointed
to find out I was still me,
Last night should've killed me.
Took a shower couldn't scrub it off
Tried to scream, I could only cough
I can't trust myself to be my own friend.
Exhausted by the effort it takes to breathe,
The Whole world is against me
That's what I belive,
don't waste your empathy on me

I'm through puttin one foot in front of the other
I'm do wanna run for cover
From the moment I wake up til I'm
starin at the ceiling trying to sleep
I wonder if I have a soul to keep.

Voices in my head will not turn off
There's a heavy weight on top
of my chest today,
I don't want it to go away because,
the moment I let down my guard,
life will hit me twice as hard
My mistake, I thought I could have
just one day off
From pushing boulders up steep hills,
playin in traffic for cheap thrills
I don't know what to do
that's why I'm tellin you that

Sometimes there's nothing on my mind
but everything at one time
Find me sliding backwards down
to where I don't want to be found
Stop with these tests give me some rest
My heart is beating right out of my chest
I do believe I have a soul to keep.