Maybe (Next to Normal)

Maybe I've lost it at last
Maybe my last lucid moment has passed
I'm dancing with death, I suppose
But really who knows?

Could be I'm crazy to go
They say you should stay with the devil you know
But when life needs a change and the one devil won't
You fly to the devil, you don't

Maybe I'm tired of the game
Of coming up short of the rules of the shame
And maybe you feel that way too
I see me in you

A girl full of anger and hope
A girl with a mother who just couldn't cope
A girl who felt caught and thought no one could see
That maybe one day she'll be free

It's so lovely that you're sharing
No really I'm all ears
But where has all this caring been for sixteen years?
For all those years I'd prayed that you'd go away for good

Half the time afraid that you really would
When I thought you might be dying
I cried for all we've never be
But there'll be no more crying, not for me

Things will get better you'll see
Not for me, you'll see
Not for me, you'll see
Not for me, you'll see
Not for me, you'll see

Maybe we can't be okay
But maybe we're tough and we'll try anyway
We'll live with what's real
Let go of what's passed
And maybe I'll see you at last

We tried to give you a normal life
I realize now I have no clue what that is
I don't need a life that's normal, that's way too far away
But something next to normal would be okay

Yeah, something next to normal
That's the thing I'd like to try
Close enough to normal to get by
We'll get by, we'll get by