All in Your Head

I've been told that it's all in my head
Possibly, but I haven't been proven wrong yet
Cause at best, I'm a mediocre joke to these folks
Who start to laugh at me when I start to choke
Whenever I swallow my pride
As I attempt to show 'em what's inside my mind
But then I quit cause I really am quite afraid
That they'll see my brain, but then wouldn't want to stay
"You need God. Why don't you go back to church?"
The only reason why I went is cause my parents first
Cause how could I believe in something else
Whenever right now, I still don't believe in myself
How messed up is that?
I'm leading the attack against my own back
Secretly wishing my vision goes black
Like I'm not destined for greatness
So everything I make is basically wasted
Time and energy that I've spent
For only me, in the end, to become irrelevant
Cause I never really fitted in within my kin
Cause my personality doesn't match my skin
Like who the hell is gonna be able to relate
To a whitewashed, brown kid filled with self-hate
And the only thing I have in common with Biggie
Is that I'm ready to die, except no one will miss me

But that's all in your head
It's all in your head
It's all in your head
All in your head
But that's all in your head
All in your head
It's all in your head
But

Take a look at me and you can see
That I'll simply never be the type of guy to make the fans scream
Cause my confidence is exceptionally less than the rest
So I can never confess I got this "S" on my chest
So I"ll stick to my lane, which is off the side
So through my own design, I'll never be fine
Cause my mind's been telling me I'm the worst when I write a verse
So I gotta quit my search cause I'll never find my worth
My biggest fear is I'll never find my purpose hear
It's so clear with every day that the end gets near
I've never been special, feeling like a stencil
I'm never gonna be number one like a pencil
So easy to erase my face
And find somebody better to take my place
Cause I'm gone without a trace like I never really mattered
Cause unlike Jackson Pollock, no one cares where I splatter
My mind's all over the place
So please don't judge me cause I know that I'm a lost case
Gotta face the fact that I lack the skills to impact
All the kids that are in the back of the pack
But they don't seem to like me anyway
They never gave two shits about what I say
And why should they when someone else does it better
So no one's gonna listen to my words ever