Eyes Wide Shut

I been shaking in my sleep

Eyes wide shut

I been shaking in my sleep

I been shaking in my sleep (Shaking in my sleep)
Tossing turning tryna find peace (tossing turning, find peace)
My demons kill me in my dreams (Kill me in my dreams)
I don't know who I can believe (I dont know who to believe)

I been living outta bag so all my shirts are wrinkled
I been living off a tab still ain't pay yet
Imma pay my dues one day
I feel internally in debt to those who show respect
And those who broke they neck for me
Posed a threat for me, wrote a check for me
Rolled the sess lowered stressed for me
18 living of off 19th ave
Where the crews carry tools and don't know they dad
So we all lost
Mothers call but we keep our phones off
Say the world is yours but I wonder what the world costs
Freedom ain't free
They gave us 9-5s, now we hate our weeks
That's some shit I could not survive thru
Rather keep an open mind why deny truth
I'm the introvert my nature is to nurture you
I'm a homebody who is homeless
I been going thru it yea
I was too young when my grandma died
No lil kid wants see their mama crying and she lying to my eyes
Saying she's alright, knowing damn well she's been weeping every night
Cuz the cancer took her bladder after that it took her soul
Mama crying in the kitchen, flooding up our home
My biggest fear to this day (What?)
Being like my father (Why?)
Sociopath (What else?)
Selfish ass dad
I was numbing all the pain - inflicting trauma in my brain
I sat ponder on these thangs
Driving in the rain
Across the country going to see my nephew he's 6 months
Ill do my best to lead the way and keep him safe
Know tha gods always with you everyday
It's just fate - i just needa calm down
Needa let my guard down
No one to call now i run but fall down

I been shaking in my sleep (Shaking in my sleep)
Tossing turning tryna find peace (Tossing turning, find peace)
My demons kill me in my dreams (Kill me in my dreams)
I don't know who I can believe (I dont know who to believe)