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We all grew up loitering in parking complexes
Harboring martyr complexes
Brandishing stigmatas in the snow

1948, my grandpa dealt with the nerves
With some Dutch courage to access confidence reserves
And I haven't found a better way to deal with it yet

2008, my father's irate when stressed
Bright red, overworked at best
And I haven't found a better way to deal with it yet

I spent so many years trying to feign chill
But I would have told you sooner if every
Villain in the movies wasn't mentally ill

And if I could go way back and just change one thing
I would never have caused all this suffering
If I could go way back, right back in time
Not've been at war with myself, would have had peacetime

And I'll feel it when I feel it when I'm all alone
And I'm up at night in my unwashed clothes
And I'm thinking 'bout it, thinking 'bout death all the time
Until I slowly feel like I'm losing my mind

What a time to be alive
What a time to be alive

Until they became bitter realities
'Cause they realized being ill ain't sexy

Because heaven knows that this is hell
This is not artistic freedom
It's a jail cell
Which will always be in us

It's a dictator taking cognitive control
It's a werewolf, slowly eating my soul
It makes me hungry even when I feel full

They calmly tell you to take your time
But yell at you when you're not in the right state of mind
C'mon get better at our own pace

But if I could go way back and just change one thing
I would never have caused all this suffering
If I could go way back, right back in time
Not've been at war with myself, would have had peacetime

And I'll feel it when I feel it when I'm all alone
And I'm up at night in my unwashed clothes
And I'm thinking 'bout it, thinking 'bout it all the time
Until I slowly feel like I'm losing my mind

What a crime to be alive
What a crime to be alive
Me and you, we're running on time
Me and you, we're running on time

Is this what heaven feels like?
Do you wanna know what heaven feels like?
Is this what Nirvana feels like?
What did Nirvana feel like?
We're enlightened, I think we're enlightened now

And I'll feel it when I feel it when I'm all alone
And I'm up at night in my unwashed clothes
And I'm thinking 'bout it, thinking 'bout it all the time
'Till I slowly feel like I'm losing my mind

And I'll try not to focus on always being in control
'Cause after all we were all raised by wolves

Wolves (an economy of self-fulfilling prophecies)

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