I Got to Be

Listen
I-I-I-I've been
Sear-er-ching and lurkin'
Tryna find my sole purpose
Yet all my vices I can't let go
Now it's a few years later
'Twas all a blur
I gotta make amends for what occurred
Sorry for chasin' somethin' you called absurd
(I got to be)
I got to be
Me

ME
Looks like I ain't got no choice
Gotta spit into the mic but I don't like my voice (Me)
So I step to the stage,
Fans I engage
You moist (Ewgh)
Just taste the cake
The red velvet of rap from the great big state
Three decades now more days to break
Never had to be woke, simply stayed awake (Simply stayed awake)
To stomp the snakes, then collect the venom
Inject it slow to ya cerebellum
(No motor control?) kill that momentum
(I can't pay attention) I tried to tell 'em
Yo symptoms include affects to language
Can't write, just mumble, you sit in anguish
No use in fightin', there's too much damage
And that boys and girls is how I
vanquish (How I vanquish, how I vanquish)
My enemies, no fantasies (Nah)
You denyin' it more? Straight prophecy
Okay, I'm lyin' that's kinda silly
I'm not a rapper, it's nu-poetry
(Is that a thing? Or some new rule)
My worlds tend to cross when jugglin' dual
Personalities, and soon you'll see
The exact limitations of my normalities (Hey)

I-I-I-I've been
Sear-er-ching and lurkin'
Tryna find my sole purpose
Yet all my vices I can't let go
Now it's a few years later
'Twas all a blur
I gotta make amends for what occurred
Sorry for chasin' somethin' you called absurd
(I got to be)
I got to be
Free

FREE
Of all things and lose my guilt
Gotta go all in from tip to hilt (Free)
S'time I commit, don't let it wilt
(See me and music?) look what we built
And where we aim, gotta burnin' flame
Was my side chick, now we share surnames
Got abstract strokes, interpretation's fluid
Tryna give a voice to those who been (Muted)
The sewage polluted my favorite school
I'm suited and fluent for this cesspool
With tools to overrule what you call art
Three-six-zero joules, shock back to start
Then insert Descartes (Another revolution?)
Hip hop with no heart, straight prostitution
Don't let mafuckas out here dictate
How you flex yo tongue and decimate (Decimate)
The weaklings who cling to a summer fling
Tryna save their marriage with new offspring (New offspring)
From my IG a new Arab Spring
Not just musically but, well you'll see
Torch the false idols you worhipping (Hey hey)
Like portraits of Reagan (Oh! A burnin' Bush?)
Message from God, He says light this kush (Hey hey)
Then chill the fuck out, now here's the hook (Here's the hook)

I-I-I-I've been
Sear-er-ching and lurkin'
Tryna find my sole purpose
Yet all my vices I can't let go
Now it's a few years later
'Twas all a blur
I gotta make amends for what occurred
Sorry for chasin' somethin' you called absurd
I got to be