Surrounded by Angels

I hate waking up to hearin bout the people loss
I hate lookin online just for me to get back off
This shit got me feelin down
It ain't no feelings lost
It's just the flesh and hearin a voice
I'll never hear them talk
I lost my grandma back in the day it's got me feelin off
I held my GG hand before she left she couldn't talk
I seen my grandfather in a year falling off
But I was torn about Lastsrza when I got the call
They gunned him down
The crazy thing about a good heart
I'm at war with myself
I've been fallin apart
Worried bout this music shit
Trynna perfect my art
I lost so many loved ones
I gotten broken heart
Then I heard about Darian
I pray it wasn't true
I wish I wasn't right
I'll remember you
Shit just be gotten so scary
When people close to you
Fall off then fade away
This pain ain't nothin new

I'm surrounded by angels that's the least I could say
So many people I done lost from way back in the day
I remember my uncle he was so cool in his ways
I close my eyes and I pray
I wish I'm over with this phase

Seem like the higher I go
The more of people that's watchin
But it don't matter when my loves can't be here to spot me
I talked with Asia on the curb for hella hours she was mad cool
She was from up north and she had plans to go to grad school
I remember so much
When I had asked you
Why we cool
You said Matt you not a bad dude
I told Drica everytime that she so strange
And she told me off like Matt you ain't got no game
I sit and smile before a tear fall off my face
Cause it's hell here I know heaven I'll feel another day
So many loved ones gone but I'm gone be okay