I Am Dumb

I am dumb
I am sad
I am numb
I am mad

But I don't know if these feelings are just in my head
I don't know if my subconscious mind wants me dead
It's really hard to understand the human brain
But I won't end this now, no, not today

Everything I make is a disappointment
Every word I say is a waste of breath
And we all know that life is pointless
Everything is because of death

But I don't care
And I don't mind
I don't know
Fuck the mind

But I know these emotions are killing me inside
I just wait around as they devour my mind
And I don't really see a point in going on
I have no hope for what's to come

But I don't wanna disappoint the ones I love
I don't want them to see me die
I don't want them to come undone
I don't want them to say goodbye

I'd end it now
But I care
I'd kill myself
But I'm too scared

If you feel sad, if you feel alone
If you feel the way I do, please don't give up hope

Just do the things that make you happy
Do them until you die
Do the things that you enjoy
And try your best not to cry
Fill your life with things you love
And fuck all the rest
Don't you know It's all bullshit anyway
So try your best to live another day
And eventually
You might be happy