My Own Guilt

Lamar!

Every time my mind be thinking of you
I start to think about the things we use to do
And it hurts me bad, that you are gone
You never looked back, I was your man
But I kept arguing, fussing and fighting with you
Never realized that each time digging a hole in you
I had high demands that came from my childhood
Not understanding that those expectations weren't good

I didn't handle my part of making you whole
Steady tearing you down with unrealistic goals
Trapping your efforts in a cage I built
Now you truly gone off of my own guilt

First and foremost, I wanna apologize for the things I did
Looking at the glass half empty created a skid
I thought I was the revival you needed in your life
But quickly realizing I was more like a termite
Eating away at your core It should've never been done
Giving you reassurance in love would've kept me number 1
Asking more from you than I put on myself
Was a recipe for disaster that shoulda put on the shelf
Instead of treating you like my queen
All I ever did was tear down your self esteem
Rarely listening to your desires and needs
Was like expecting a tree without planting the seed
Part of being a partner is helping to build you up
But I was breaking you down just like a punch to the gut
But I was breaking you down just like a punch to the gut
All while losing your love and then losing your trust

I didn't handle my part of making you whole
Steady tearing you down with unrealistic goals
Trapping your efforts in a cage I built
Now you truly gone off of my own guilt

I get it now that I put a lot on you
From who your friends were and what you could do
Calling to check up all the time
Had you looking like a fool
Was too overprotective
Your friends Said I didn't value you
Suffocating your voice and not trusting in your choices
Oh I'm sorry baby oh so sorry baby

I didn't handle my part of making you whole
Steady tearing you down with unrealistic goals
Trapping your efforts in a cage I built
Now you truly gone off of my own guilt

I should've been paying attention
Baby I should've been listening
But I was so hard headed
My Own Guilt