Hold Me Down

Contemplating over paths and which one to take
Over-influenced by my past like for heaven sakes
Habits are easily formed - so hard to shake
Now I'm juggling a pair of hearts that soon I'm gonna break
Listen just hear me out, don't be so quick to judge me
Cause she was there when I was down, she watched the shit get ugly
She listened to my complaints, and how I wished you loved me
Then I got caught up in the mix and thought this chick was lovely
She complimented my efforts and told me keep it up
She distanced herself from the others who couldn't keep it up
Late nights on the couch while I'm over her crib
We exchanged our inner thoughts on how we wanna live
She was everything I wanted and she loved the kid
I kept it more than real with her and she loved the shit
Never trip, Maybe i'll see you round
I guess I wanted to be with one who was gone hold me

I done been through more shit than I can deal with
Time is running out, I need people I can build with
Which way do I go
Which way do I go
(Damn)

We went back and forth, felt like we taking turns
With every word we dug deeper till the feeling burned
I played your game and overtime you never learned
But you got caught up in your feelings now cause the tables spurned
Some things you shouldn't do
You played me for a fool
And tried hide it, which made it cowardly and cruel
Fueled by your intentions, heated when you get mentioned
They say what don't kill can only just help you strengthen
I questioned your perception, dishonor was what I'm sensing
I saw the signs clear but ignored it for my protection
My heart I let you hold it, my heart it just exploded
You said I was the one, end quote, I had to quote it
We said our love was coded and voted to be devoted
I thought we had it all didn't question the sinner motive
I promised to never fall but noticed your inner lotus
It was us against them all didn't vision for you to blow this (hold up)

I done been through more shit than I can deal with
Time is running out, I need people I can build with
Which way do I go
Which way do I go
(Damn)

What I came to realize bout as clear as day
We ride but hide behind our pride and it's in the way
I just want that main thing in that beginning phase
Many link up but how many stay
Why should a nikka give his heart just to feel betrayed
Why should a lady give her all just to still be played
We complain, explain our inner pain
If we mentioned our faults, I'm sure we'll all be ashamed (hold up)
He started with a damn girl I miss you
Words that weren't ritual, supposed to keep it simple
Suppose to only want that one thing he couldn't get to
Ain't talking bout her pussy boy I'm talking bout a mental
And once you get a piece my advice is you be gentle
Stroke soothingly with your truths or she'll resent you
They say if its real it'll be right back
I say if it was real it would of never left

I done been through more shit than I can deal with
Time is running out, I need people I can build with
Which way do I go
Which way do I go
(Damn)