Best Intentions

You can't recall
The simplest things
I failed to see
I dwell on all the faults
Etched in my memory
As the seasons fade
My fingers curl away
Looking down
But no mirror
Hides the blame

And I could have sworn
That I would handle this
Better
Tired and worn
Holding out for better
Weather

There's a disconnect
And it's evident
I tell you now
Like I told you then
To point me in the
Right direction
It's mixed amongst
My best intentions

Call it the same
And yet I think
It's a gesture
That lost all meaning
When we missed
The center

Give me the words to say
And I'll recite them all
Careful consideration
Fuels my monologue
And you don't even
Think about this anymore
While I'm still struggling
And hung up on a score

And I could have sworn
That I would handle this
Better
Tired and worn
Holding out for better
Weather

There's a disconnect
And it's evident
I tell you now
Like I told you then
To point me in the
Right direction
It's mixed amongst
My best intentions

Call it the same
And yet I think
It's a gesture
That lost all meaning
When we missed
The center

And when I was
At my proudest
That's when you began
To doubt it
Though I always spoke
The loudest
Now I've learned
To listen

There's a disconnect
And it's evident
I tell you now
Like I told you then
To point me in the
Right direction
It's mixed amongst
My best intentions

Call it the same
And yet I think
It's a gesture
That lost all meaning
When we missed
The center

Point me in the
Right direction
It's mixed amongst
My best intentions

We left this
We left this
We left this
Where we started

Not knowing
Not knowing
Not knowing
When we parted

And all these
And all these
And all these
Best intentions

Have led us
So far from
The safest place
We mentioned

Can I say I'm sorry?