Cant Do Long Distance

I live 3000 miles away from heaven
But she comes back
In the summer
To visit me
I hate the distance
But I can't show that it get to me
Cuz what'll that do but make
Everything harder for her and
More of a bother for me

Only thing that get in the way
Is that I don't wanna
Get cemented into
This point in her life as a phase
Recently I watched all of my trust
Get pummeled to dust
Thrown away, and
She's the only thing
That could end this cycle of misery

At least that's what I think
But Everything's
Not what it seems to be
Summer never comes
So Nothing is what it means to me
And needless to say
That that's the way that it has to be

So I'll keep star shopping
Eye balls veins popping
Until this space suit run out of oxygen
Cuz like thrift shopping
When it's gone
You can never find what you found again and
What's the point if we know
The consequence

My life's a sold out bumper car arena
Where
I can't help but keep crashing
It's hit or get hit
So I'm out here wreaking havoc
Looking for any reason
If they even think about it
It's automatic

Sadboy
Savage, tactless, detached, and problematic
With as many issues as the National Geographic
Can't even get on a flight to see you
Cuz the airline held me to tell me
The plane couldn't fit all of this baggage

So Ima let you down easy
I don't even want you to see me
Even though I know
These days are my last
Out of all the
Fish in the sea
I made one hellava catch
But I'd rather you go
Than hold you back

Well
I always thought
We were perfect
For one another
So I checked our zodiacs
To see if it's real
All that I found
Was that our stars
Don't all the way match
We go together like pizza and milk

What's the point in caring if nothing matters
Nothing matters
Run out of oxygen
Nothing matters
Get pummeled to dust
Nothing matters
Think about it
Life is
Not what seems to be

Life isn't perfect
Life is a thrill
Life is a cycle of misery
Life is a phase
And whats the point if
We know the consequence