Spring

I've been sleepin' on the left side of the bed
Like I always do
I pay no mind to the cold in my room
It's been stuck inside for weeks now
And I think it wants away as much as me
But I can't convince myself
That I'm ready to be lonely

I've been struggling since Spring
I've watched my fears rise up from dust clouds in front of me
And I'm aching
I'm watching pictures of our brightest days
Escape their frames, they're nothing but a memory
And I'm shaking
At the thought
That you're gone
And I'm not
You've moved on
Where am I?

The right side of the bed, it watches as I sleep
Promises a comfort that I have yet to see
I'm watching all our shows again
I can still hear you breathe
It's a blessing in disguise
It fills the silence in between
We still exist in passing
Or at least that's what it seems
Since I can't stop saying "Us"
When I mean to talk about me
I'm telling all our stories
But I'm missing all the beats
It's the things that mean nothing
That when gone, mean everything

And I've been struggling since Spring
I've watched my fears rise up from dust clouds in front of me
And I'm aching
I'm watching pictures of our brightest days
Escape their frames, they're nothing but a memory
And I'm shaking
At the thought
That you're gone
And I'm not
You've moved on

It's a battle tried and true
I've been lost over others
I'll find my way away from you
I've got archers at the ready
Every defense I'll ever need
I think I'm ready to roll over
To the place I never sleep
And stop waiting for you to come home

And I've been struggling since Spring
I've watched my fears rise up from dust clouds in front of me
And I'm aching
I'm watching pictures of our brightest days
Escape their frames, they're nothing but a memory
And I'm shaking
And I've been struggling to sing
I'll let the echoes tell me where I need to be