Out of Fear

Out of fear

Showed up to a wedding dressed for a funeral
Listening to Bring Me the Horizon
Trying to decide whether the new songs were as good as the old songs
Trying to understand why anyone makes such drastic changes in their lives

But with age comes maturity
With growth comes compromise
With access comes responsibility
With education comes a voice

What we do with this voice is important
How we develop and evolve our voice
Is pivotal to our influence on others
It's all interconnected and essential to success

The future is not guaranteed
The future is not promised
The future is in crisis
The future is unknown

Today is what concerns me
And that's what fucks me up the most
Today is melting at a rapid rate
Within a fire we cannot contain

We do not have the resources
We do not have the time
And it feels like we've lost our chance to save ourselves
We keep breaking down
Out of fear for our future
Out of fear of missing out
Out of fear
Out of fear
Out of fear comes insecurity

Nothing new is learned out of fear
Out of fear comes more fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear

You ever see a tow Truck towing another tow truck?
Well, it's sorta like that
When I break down
I seek another broken person to drag me around
Someone who understands where I'm coming from
And knows where i've been

But I often fear this reliance comes off as a burden
I've never wanted to be a burden
Even though I know how much patience it takes to simply be around me

Those who I've loved and those who I've hated
All tell me I'm not a burden but I've recently struggled to trust that that's true

I faithfully insist that I do not exist
The future is unknown
And I think I like it that way
I'm becoming more comfortable with what I cannot control
So I'm giving up my control and learning to let go

I'm learning that someday none of this will matter
And that someday I'll be gone
Someday I'll be gone
And I think I like it that way

With growth comes the future we are not promised
With growth comes an attempt to change the course of that which we are not guaranteed
That was two ways of saying the same thing
But at least it's an option of perspective

And my hope is that we're allowed to hold multiple perspectives in the future
Because as it stands today, I'm not sure we will be able to even think without fear

Nothing new is learned out of fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear