Adolescence

Barley 10 n a half, I done lost my Dad
I'm so confused reminiscing on the times we had
Hold up Mom is he coming back, he gone for good
The concept of death, got dat shit misunderstood
Mom's a mess, I dont know what to do
She depressed, but I gotta catch dat bus up to school
When she told me had a knot in my throat
Cancer all up in his lungs, it was not like we hoped, damn
I seen the decline quick, wish I could rewind shit
Maybe they coulda caught it sooner but, it was too late
Is it today, can't go back in time, thoughts swiveling around cloud a young nigga mind uh

In my adolescence
Been thru so much
In my adolescence
In my adolescence
Mom need antidepressants
In my adolescence
In my adolescence
Young nigga I'm in my adolescence
Lost my Pops up in my adolescence
I'm in my adolescence

His last Birthday I remember he was so weak
So ill, he ain't even look the same bruh
What to expect, what's next, nobody told me
Changed me forever I dont remember the old me
At the funeral home, lookin at my Pops, my daddy layin in a box hoping I can stop
My mom's from cryin, me n my brother was numb Dough
Wish it was a dream waiting for pops to come home
All I could think of is the last time I saw my dad
He was sick as fuck but pulled up with some grocery bags
Weak as hell, still worried bout the shit we had
Think it was July when he pulled up in dat Cadillac
Momma told me to help, but then I said no
All on the floor, lazy watchin my shows
The look of disappointment grabbed the bags and then he fell
Thinking back I'm so fuckin disgusted wit myself

In my adolescence
Been thru so much
In my adolescence
In my adolescence
Mom need antidepressants
In my adolescence
In my adolescence
Young nigga I'm in my adolescence
Lost my Pops up in my adolescence
I'm in my adolescence

Scrapped his knee, he was bleeding on the stairs
So caught up with my things, it seemed I didn't even care
You shoulda seen the look in his eye
It was that day that was the first and the last time dat I seen my dad cry
It wasnt because his leg was hurt
It wasnt because my dad laying all in the dirt
It was because my nigga knew what it was
It was his time my Pops had finally realized
He couldn't stay wit us for too much longer
He knew how much his little boy really needed his Father
He knew dat he was gonna die and I ain't understand
He aint have the time to teach me how to be a man

In my adolescence
My adolescence
In my adolescence



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Writer(s): Adam Bonsell
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