I'm Free

I don't wanna be anything
But right here in this moment
I'm free
I'm free
Living right here in this moment

I mean I guess these days
Are supposed to be the greatest in life
They say we'll always be looking back so savior it right
&. ever since then I just find it getting later at night
Thinking 'bout life & am I really making it right

I grab a pen and feel my heart start to race as I right
& then I read it over and wanna erase what I write
I feel resentment towards family members wasting their life
I thank my parents every single day for raising me right

I got a lot to say its like the pens bleeding
I've been keeping so much inside I'm revenge seeking
But then even when I get what I wanted
It's like depressions in front & I'm more upset that I've done it

These days I'm getting colder
I tell them life sucks they just say I'm getting older
Like what kind of advice is that
As if life's a trap
But all I really know is that

I don't wanna be anything
But right here in this moment
I'm free
I'm free
Living right here in this moment

Last night I prayed to God man it's been a while
I really haven't shown a flash of a grin or smile
On top of that I think the past got me in denial
I wanna talk, don't really have a close friend to dial

My circle of friends turned to a ghost town
A path to loneliness, I might as well be the host now
I don't even know what hurts the most now
Killing the pain or pills my uncle chokes down

It's not a shot it's a warning
My dad expected you to be here Father's Day morning
But you hit the drugs & that's your only sin
But you can't hit forever, look at Tony Gwynn

Eventually the shit will catch up to you
& I ain't a kid no more I ain't trying to look up to you
In the sky, I want you here now
No other place, we're here now

I don't wanna be anything
But right here in this moment
I'm free
I'm free
Living right here in this moment

As if we buried the issue
As if you kept in touch like you were worried I missed you
There was once a time I'd be in a hurry to kiss you
But my heart set a precedent to already forget you

Like what were we in the first place
Heartbreakers to each other in the worst case
There were times I couldn't stop thinking 'bout your face
Now the best times only take me to the worst place

A dark place in my mind I've been there before
All I know is I don't even really care anymore
Or maybe it's the pain talking
All I really know is we ain't talking

Women asking wassup
I pass through & I'm just passing them up
'Cause I ain't fast to give up
I ain't asking for much
I just feel like shit is undone
How could you make memories with someone then become one

I don't wanna be anything
But right here in this moment
I'm free
I'm free
Living right here in this moment