Exits (Lord Save Me)

I've been, lost in my ways
Mind in a daze
Going MIA, probably been missing for days
Feeling like I should've been hopped on a plane
Phone silent, no ring
'Cause I don't wanna hear a thing
And my family talking to me
Tryna wake me up, I hit the snooze
Eyes closed to everything
I ain't even watching the news
Got a girl at home, but I'm just doing things she won't approve
With different ho's I pick and choose
Like I ain't got nothing to lose
In this life I'm livin', I'm sinning
Drenched in some women
Having conversations wit' 'em
That ease 'em out their denim
Lay 'em on linen, get in 'em, finish and soon forget 'em
Then I ask myself, how'd I become accustomed to this venom
I don't even wanna be like this
I know I got a lot to risk
Though it's something 'bout having' chips and making ladies wanna dip
But I ain't even famous yet
And I even get no check
So how I'm out here tryna be the man
That shit is incorrect
Time and time again I put myself in a position
That's against my better judgment
When I knew I should've listened
On my knees, but I'm scared to go to GOD and repent
'Cause after I do, somehow I end up doing the same shit

And even though my eyes are open, I've lost my sight
I keep bumping into this wall that's blocking me from doing right
Brain racin', it doesn't pull in the station at night
As I lay in bed and look to the sky, wonderin' why
I ask

Lord save me
Lord save me
Lord save me, I need a way out
Lord save me
Lord save me
Lord save me, I need you now

I've been isolated 'cause I rather be alone
My mom ask why I'm never home and why I'm always gone
Tells me that she always thinks about me when she hears my songs
Feeling wrong when I simply reply, I been in my zone
There's no excuse not to work a phone
Or 'cause my life is hectic
I'm tryna stay connected, but feel I'm losing reception
Tomorrows not promised and I need to make those corrections
And treat her how I treat my music
Say how I feel and express it
I know I could be a better son, a better father
A better uncle, a better brother
Let's take it further
A better person, a better friend, a better man
A better artist to paint yours and my pain like no one can
Trapped by my thoughts, been livin' my life in a full circle
Whats goes around, comes around and what comes around sure can hurt you
So be careful how you care for and treat the people you love
As I target my demons, I ask for strength from up above

And even though my eyes are open, I've lost my sight
I keep bumping into this wall that's blocking me from doing right
Brain racin', it doesn't pull in the station at night
As I lay in bed and look to the sky, wonderin' why
I ask

Lord save me
Lord save me
Lord save me, I need a way out
Lord save me
Lord save me
Lord save me, I need you now

With good, comes bad
With choices, comes reasons
With angels, comes demons
To cloud everything you believe in
But hold on and have faith
And keep on dreaming

(Yo)

Look I don't sleep no more
Lay in my bed tossin' and turning
Thinking 'bout all the decisions I made with no discernment
The ones I left hurtin', yearning for a promising purpose
That gave me love and more
And in return they just got a burden
Please forgive me
I know I got some things built up in me
That's no excuse to do what I do
The devil is tryna to end me
My life's on a spiral, I need a revival, to pray for my rivals
I need to go viral and when in doubt
I surely need to go and turn to my bible, become the thirteenth disciple
And walk by faith and finally get my ass up outta this cycle
A couple niggas despise you, careful they could be beside you
A friend could fri you in the end
That's why I keep me a rifle
They say they like you, then bite you
Won't hesitate when I smite you
Then pop up at your funeral as I stand tall as the Eiffel
That's what I keep an eye full
My trust is thin as tight rope
Wishing life had autocorrect so I can fix all my typos
Am I the only one that feels like this
I need me and exit, this shit is depressing
Thinkin' that I need some depressants
To remove the stressin', guessin', but shit
I learned me a lesson
When life ain't adding up I need to pray and count all my blessings
My whole life, I've been a loner
I'm surprised I'm not stoner
Drive slow and you'll live longer
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Been at war with myself
I hang my head down and sob
In pieces, but I'm at peace as I become on with GOD