Why Can't I?

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I was tripping on a cactus in the middle of the desert
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I was running from the wolves in a marathon t-shirt
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I was choking on the truth and swallowing my pride

I was waiting for the drugs to kick in
Like a creepy crawling under my skin
I was waiting for my life to begin...

And hey
I know its late
And maybe I'm the only one awake
Looking to the stars that fade into the night
And I can't complain about my state
Cuz maybe I'm the only one to blame
The darker path I chose to take with no flash light
Now I'm not surprised to find my future's looking bright.

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I was draining out my bank account, drinking in a ghost town
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I was dancing to forget about a redhead in a white gown
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I was trapped inside myself, now I'm making my escape

I was hoping that the love would set in
Though it let me down a time and again
I was ready for my life to begin

And hey
I might be crazy
Or maybe I'm the only who's sane
Waiting for my judgement day to testify
I'm not afraid to state my case
One hand on the Bible and one hand raised
Swearing on my mother's grave I did no crime
And I'm not surprised to find my future's looking bright.
If my eyes can find the time to cry, then why can't I?

It took 36 years of lying to get here
And the truth is on the tip of my tongue
Hit a bump in the road now I'm driving on good years
Look how far I've come
And I've just begun

AND HEY - I know I'm late
But at least I showed my face
And that's more than most can say about their time
And I'm not ashamed about my faith
Cuz maybe I'm the only one who's saved -
Praying to the holy angels in my mind
And I'm not surprised to find my future's looking bright
If my dreams can find the time to fly, then why can't I?