My Motivation

I'm still always acting reckless
I'm still checking on my exes
I ain't flooding out no neckless
Cause my mama life expensive
I know I got an advantage
Cause I'm talented and handsome
Make yo' woman throw a tantrum
She might hold me for a ransom

I see evil when I look around
Yeah
High in clouds and I ain't coming down
You can't play me with no run around
Yeah chops out why they keep on running now

I think I know why I'm angry
Cause I built up all this anger
Want the money skyscraping
Oh she love me I don't give a fuck
I'm focused all on paper
I would die before you take it
Ain't shit that could ever change it
Oh you sorry I don't give a fuck

We had let off 'bout a hundred rounds
Yeah
They expensive but I hand 'em out
Know if he play then we gon' air it out
I can't converse on topics I ain't ever cared about

I'm getting love from all these strangers
Crazy I ain't even famous
He keep on talkin out his top
I knock it off and now he brainless
Don't forget that I'm still dangerous
And I shoot like Army Rangers
Please do not get rode on
They gon' do it without thinking

They all gon' know right where I come from
East Durham they burn some
I learned how to fight and shoot
I'll play it how you wanna
The city made a soldier
And mama made a man
That's why all my moves are militant and everything is planned

I was fourteen with that compact in my back pocket like mmm yeah
Fifteen with that compact in my backpack like mmm yeah
Sixteen and seventeen went away but look I'm back now
Eighteen with that big pole in my pants so don't get whacked down

My dawg went from selling candy now he selling crack now
Hood entrepreneur what I call 'em cause he got cash now
Please don't get that boy too mad cause he'll up it and crash out
I know what I'll do to you so I try not to spazz out

Grandad said ain't nothing given in this life you work for this
Mama said don't ever run from problems bear you learn from this
Happiness don't just appear you sacrifice and earn for this
I think I'm ready for it now I been through too much hurt for this

I spent a lot of time on you I wish I could of took back
Pain in my good memories so I try not to look back
That's why your rearview mirror so much smaller than your front glass
You 'posed to keep going forward
You don't got to look back
Hold back everything
I can't control it when I lash out
Used to hold my breath waiting for you
And then I passed out
Could of died when that van got to spinning
And I crashed out
That's how I know I'm here for a reason nigga
No cap now
Big racks in my pocket
What I seen up in my dreams
Yeah
Now it's up to me to make it to reality
I'm supposed to change my life
Like you never did for me
How you all over that man
When you said you in love with me
I had to let her go
Let her fly
She depart from me
But it hurt me when I left you
Cause I left a part of me
Fuck it I'll just put my everything into these beats
Cause I know I'll never mean to her
What she meant to me

But I'm still thuggin'
Mind on money
You won't ever take it from me
If he play lil' bitch I up it
Came from nothing
Now we something
Gotta keep going for mama
Cause I know if I fold up
Then I'll be folding on all us
Promise I will not be falling

In a Maxima while she at work and then she copped a house
She ain't ever stop grinding
She found some water in a drought
Went from Brookwood out in Roxboro
ATL and Creedmoor
Moving schools so much
Can't keep a friend and I ain't need none
I ain't telling sad stories nigga
My motivation nigga