Note 3: Black Wolf

I've never been one to call the Devil out in the room, but
Given the circumstances tell me, what would you have me do?
N' I can tell by the way you grind your teeth, he's got you, too
You made a bet with prior debt n' now the payment's due
The death of you sparked hearts faster than a wild fire
You left with the sudden impulse of your mind's desire
Thinkin' the world would be better off if your life expired
Leavin' us with the echo of "don't go" etched in barbed wire
Even though you had the biggest heart I've ever seen
Maybe it was possible you were tearing at the seams
I remember the night you called me up, askin' me to come by
It was the first time I'd ever seen you lose your mind
You just pushed it off, smiled, said it would be fine
You really made me believe that everything would be alright
N' like an idiot, I walked off into the night
Not knowin' it'd be the last time I'd see you alive

In the silence there is... weeping
'Cause in your echo I've been... sleeping

Just what the fuck you think would happen?
Slammin' all of them drugs
You were in far too deep for any of us to pick you up
That shit was below you, man, you must've went n' lost your head
I know you were stronger than any of the rumors they spread
I still look back on all the wise things that you said
E, how is any of this shit better now that you're dead?
You rear view mirrored us n' went off to face yourself
If you had it planned, why even bother askin' me for help?
I hate myself for lettin' you get to yourself
I'd give my life to put you n' everyone else back upon the shelf
You disappeared up in smoke with nowhere else to go
You felt alone? I was right there n' I faced it on my own
I can't hate you, I can't stay mad if I tried
For the longest time, you were the only reason I was alive
Maybe I coulda saved your life...
Maybe if I woulda stayed that night... hell, you'd still be here... But I'm dwellin', right?

In the silence there is... weeping
'Cause in your echo I've been... sleeping

I can't believe how much time has passed
It seems like forever since I last saw your ass
The whole crew is gone, I'm the only one that's left
How am I supposed to live for all of you with all this emptiness?
I'm sick of this, feeling like my efforts weren't worth shit
I don't think you'll ever know how much you're truly missed
My soul would be in an abyss without you there to guide it
I was blinded by the grief you left behind n'
Honestly, I must confide, I contemplated takin' my own life
Just to see you on the other side
I didn't get to say goodbye, I wasn't given a reason why
You couldn't find it within yourself to hold on and survive
It's limitless, the amount of paths you could've paved
You saved me from my wicked ways n' help me fight another day
The least I could do is live in memory of your name
'Cause it's engraved in me like I was the headstone at your grave