Musical Monologue

This is
Reconstruction of the Heart
Where I pour out every emotion that I have

Long nights, and long days
7 weeks through and we got a long way
Your yellow is writing in his diary but it's not dog days
I really hope your meaning in my life was not a small phase
No one was at fault but I took the blame, I said it
Life has paved a lot of roads but yo we're made of engines
Lines were crossed right at the end which then created tension
So I wrote the music so that the memories would stay cemented
The average talent level, I'm above it
But I only do the music because I want it and I love it
But when this all started out, I would sit at home and cry alone
Because I lost my best friend now my best friend is my microphone
I look back to all the wonderful days
Where you would make me blush so much and always had nothing to say
We laid a foundation from long distance no one can relate
But when I saw you for the first time, a mask covered your face
But Covid wasn't just a bad flare up
I lashed out cause I faced everything I had feared of
So I'll reflect unlike a bad mirror
And if I summarized a tad clearer
I can't make up that I met you right in the mask era
Damn, you know I'm talking to you casually
Yeah
And I wrote that shit so casually
Deep talks inside a lyrical masterpiece
I have to peak when I'm hiding from all the emotions that are chasing after me
Yeah
Imagine losing one of your best friends
Geez
But the ones who've stayed close are all my g's
In so much shock that I would freeze
Praying everyday that things work out so please
I know that time will heal up all my wounds
And I really hope you'll want us to get caught up soon
I'm in the darkest room praying that I am thought of too
But I know that it'll work out when god wants it to
If at all we do

Yeah, I always overthink
I share all my despair and all my hope with ink
I felt like shots were taken so ironically I chose the links
Remember I would look into your eyes and then with both I'd wink
Okay so I blinked, yeah bro you blinked
Nice, well that's cool, I'm having fun with this
The memories will stay afloat although I know we've sunk the ship
Yeah, but all smiles and I'm laughing for you
Last thing I wanna say is that I'm happy for you
For real, this is what you wanted, hope it's all smooth
Makes me happy, don't if you want let's talk soon
Yeah, this, this was good
Alright, see ya

Yeah, it was hard at first to stand and listen
But then god gave me more strength than I'd get from Planet Fitness
Yeah
Or Gold's Gym whatever works for you
Each person of personnel, I thank you for letting me get personal
Yeah
Ya know I thought you'd always stand with me
It sucks because I felt like I was family
Or maybe I still am or I'm just nothing but an ex
And that the love was temporary and they're now loving on the next
But no matter if I'm a wrap, I love 'em all and that's a fact
Including you and I still would if y'all had hatred towards me back
I really mean it and I'll repeat the statement
With everything that's deviated
I still have so much love for y'all and everyone is appreciated
Yeah
This shows a lot about my character, the fact
Nothing bad was said even when I was mad
I've always treated other people how they have always treated me
So if you don't need me, I don't need you back but look see
I have acceptance for one person and they have put me through a fight
But I'll always show you love because you really have changed my life
So one last thing if you don't listen or even if you do
I said things when I was angry and really deflated too
I hate the situation given but I've never hated you
So nothing bad's directed at you and that is really the blatant truth

It's B