The Murder In My Mind

Tanu
You know the motherfucking deal
Just sit down
And shut the fuck up

I see a motherfucker try to step to me
They don't see all I am is an mc
What they see they just can't believe
This white kid who's refusing to leave
I see a motherfucker trying besting me
But they don't know that shit's like extasy to me
The competitive rap demon infesting me
Is my own brain doing what's best to me

I take a look around me
All I see are the walls that surround me
Just me and my mind feeling lonely
It's playing some tricks on me running from me
But don't get me wrong sometimes we two get along
Like when we're all alone trying to write a fucking song
Headphones on writing on my phone
It's my reason for living so I do it all night long
When I write my mind ain't my enemy
When I don't I'm fighting the sin in me
When I think of the worst I consider me
Me lying in a hearse had that epiphany
But I do what I can to avoid that
That's one of the biggest reasons that I do rap
I don't feel like dying with the boom bap
Every single night have to work on a fucking track
They can't believe what they can't see
They don't see the time I'm investing
All these voices just don't let me be
I think there's a demon in me
When I don't work it denies my worth
Always telling me what I don't deserve
It never lets me just be myself
It's damaging my mental health

I see a motherfucker try to step to me
They don't see all I am is an mc
What they see they just can't believe
This white kid who's refusing to leave
I see a motherfucker trying besting me
But they don't know that shit's like extasy to me
The competitive rap demon infesting me
Is my own brain doing what's best to me

My mind is my enemy
Try to quiet it down with some Hennessey
But it don't make me see a better me
It just makes me sleep but I cannot dream
I'm lost in a nightmare
Try to fight my mind but I can't find a way out of here
I'm stuck no one else here
It's forcing me to deal with all my fear
I'm locked in a cage fight
Me and my mind same coin just the other side
Inside my mind one of us dies tonight
I have to there's no more space to hide
Take a knife, to end a motherfuckers life
When we done I'll be done with this fucking strife
No more writing like a nine to five
When I write imma write cause I want to write
Imma keep a part of you in me
Lock it up let it out when I can't see
A better way I'll let it guide me
But I'll never again let him roam free
I can finally just be me
I don't need a drink of this motherfucking Hennessey
I'm free, I'm my own mc
Now time to deal with all who step to me

I see a motherfucker try to step to me
They don't see all I am is an mc
What they see they just can't believe
This white kid who's refusing to leave
I see a motherfucker trying besting me
But they don't know that shit's like extasy to me
The competitive rap demon infesting me
Is my own brain doing what's best to me
I see a motherfucker try to step to me
They don't see all I am is an mc
What they see they just can't believe
This white kid who's refusing to leave
I see a motherfucker trying besting me
But they don't know that shit's like extasy to me
The competitive rap demon infesting me
Is my own brain doing what's best to me



Credits
Writer(s): Tawer Jaba
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