Shut Down

16 Years of age
Is coming at you live
People post about their life
So let me share you mine
When people look at me and they make a design
That they can shame me all they want and I'll be fine
And I take that personally
But I'm a man I should tough up and forget about it

But my one coping mechanism is for me to go to the shower and cry about it

And it just hurts I just have to admit
But people always question me if this emotion is legit

Because now I guess this type of emotion is now for attention
So it's better for me not to mention

I've been in 6 different friend groups in the last 2 years
Trying to put on a fake smile. And not show the tears
And then exposing my real fears
Of me growing up and wasted all these years

A couple of people hey tore are you ok
I laugh and smile to show them I'm alr
And I don't tell them that I don't sleep bec I'm up in the night
Then repeat over the same thing again and act polite

False rumors about me are spreading like a virus

To me that's childish at it's finest
People are so evolved with their own bias
That they can say whatever they want about me and I'll be quiet
But if I try talk back then they'll act all innocent and then start their crying

How about it's time to grow up people
What is this the 4th grade
You act like your a political icon when we are all the same age
Thinking that all your bullshit excuses is gonna be the great escape
But in the end all you are just human and that will always remain

I got my heart broken 3 times all at once

And the pain was still there and it lasted for months
That every body was fighting for her
And wasn't believing me
And they just want to see me suffer and enjoy to see me bleed

But I picked myself up over and over again
That these people aren't worth it it's time to move ahead

A couple of people hey tore r u ok
I laugh and smile to show them I'm alr
And I don't tell them that I don't sleep bec I'm crying in the night
Then repeat over the same thing again and act polite

Life is gonna keep throwing bullshit at me one after another
But I always have to try to not throw that on my mother

I got to keep going. Gotta put my big boy pants on

No matter if the hard times are gonna last long
Me just trying to be my own king and put on my own crown
People just keep breaking my heart then I shut down...