Tempest Lily

I won't let you go

If you won't let me know
That I'm old and alone
My tempest lily

And it won't be in vein
Won't make the same mistakes
And I know that I'll be
So afraid
But I won't let you know
My tempest lily

Every day the mirror says that I'll be fine
if I keep doing all the things that I must
to keep my mother proud
and stand up to every kind of stupid demand
and walk and walk till my feet bleed
Cause I'm absolutely free to do whatever they want me to I guess
I don't understand love cause I'm sick of compromising
Anymore
Sick of giving cause all the bites on my hands hurt
I won't be nailed on the cross twice this month
I won't feed their eyes with the picture they want
cause I'm sick of crying spiders behind their backs
Tempest lily you're my life
Oh God how I dreaded your arrival
Naked, spread legs on a hospital bed and warm lips
sucking my life,
taking my dreams,
making me feel so happy inside
and I won't smoke
and I won't drink
and I won't eat until my bones pierce my skin
You are the hope that was not too high for me
Tempest Lily