Friends

A positive mind goes through the changes to fight and prevail
Through the outcomes but got excluded from the people's betrayals
Including lies with no honesty to fit in between
It seems like I'm surrounded by phonies and their schemes
They're snakes that hiss around 'till they smother their prey
Without warning and now you're cautious while staying out the way
Can't trust no-one in this day and age of fakes and hypocrites
Loyalty is irrelevant in this era to exist
Life is tricky with people 'who don't understand royalty
Being phony's a disease to me, I can't breathe
Or feel peace, unless it's in my dreams when I sleep
Fantasizing on ending satan's streak, so he feels defeat
I peep on when I feel intense
Or when my brain needs to vent about it feeling so ambivalent
On who to love and who to trust that isn't toxic stench
Now the question's still remaining, what are friends?

Real friends seem rare to be present, present
I've yet to find the answer, what are friends?

Ayo, my times were spent on suffering from paying the price
On expensive friends that turned to enemies and snakes that bite
I felt the knife behind my back and It came with pain that would strike
It changed my sight on who to trust and who to keep in my life
My fundamental dislikes were on the folks 'who lied to me
The hate that I had for society would always follow me
Became my biggest rivalry, then It would haunt my conscience
I couldn't stop it or tell anyone cause they would gossip
Anxiety kidnapped my trust and it started telling me
That I'll lose it 'If I ever shared it with humanity
I agreed cause my experience from people's jealousy
Turned my heart into an self-centered prick that mind reads
Who's phony or real enough to prove it at last
Without me asking 'if they'll ever be an backstabber?
What are friends? is the question that I ask "to this day"
Cause the people of today act dense to respond, It's like

Real friends seem rare to be present, present
I've yet to find the answer, what are friends?

They say, "more people in ya life causes love to grow bigger"
But the ones 'I've faced, taught me that friends are an myth in a picture
That isn't real to be viewed, unless you're true in the mirror
People these days use ya, then hide behind the trigger
Staying alone is the wave and it heals my heart with no favors
Oh, how I wish I never gave it away to heart-breakers
Now I'm an wreck and I'll prolly be forever insecure
I keep my guard up like an G that keeps a gat in the drawer
I store a timer in my head and give no patience to strangers
I blame the people in my past for my future of anger
A bunch of questions have no answers cause the mystery's cursed, hey
I should of put myself 'before the world in the first place
Cause limits always build 'if they're pushed on the nice guy
It's better to be evil and strapped than be stuck with lies
Screw on tryna make amends cause I'll never fit in, why?
Cause I don't know what it's like to have friends by my side, ha