Daily Thoughts

I been tryna find my place
Cause everything I dreamed as a kid
Was erased
When I realized life was more than just numbers
That void inside me kept growing even stronger
Happiness eludes me
You know that empty feeling
When you finally hit the pillow
Remembering the moments
When you didn't have to lay alone
That's me
Wonderin if ima make it past thirty
Always been an if cause I've been flirting
With death
Since I was 15
And my brain decided it would try to kill me
Years would pass before I passed that certainty
That was with a certain me
Never took a glancing
Always on go mode
No wonder I'm a stress fiend
And all the talk of Money and a life
Still stress me
I'm just tryna make what I like
And get stress free

Findings new ways to life
I don't even breathe
If you not one I like
Running the world
From a brain ran on spite
Yeah yeah yeah
Right

Findings new ways to life
I don't even breathe
If you not one I like
Running the world
From a brain ran on spite
Yeah yeah yeah
Right

Expectations over me are too extreme
Riddled with seams
Button eyed
Felt like a puppet
Until my late teens
Need to be the greatest
If I wanna breathe
Newton dropped the Apple
Steve dropped the MacBook
Einstein tellin me about relativity
Well in relative terms I'm behind
Maybe I'm ahead
But my futures not in lines yet
Book the dates I'm coming out
Pause
Tell me where I'm at in ten years
I won't be surprised
Any answer given could be my reality
Live to my impulse
Slave to anxiety

Findings new ways to life
I don't even breathe
If you not one I like
Running the world
From a brain ran on spite
Yeah yeah yeah
Right

I felt some love in my life
In LA
And I thought you felt the same
But we took a different plane
Now I'm
Feeling great
And all the things I'm supposed to say
But I'd be lying
If I didn't miss the day
When we were laying on my bed
I thought you felt the same
But the messages we played
Seemed to reach a different way
Now I'm
Doing better than the day we parted ways
I'd be lying
If I said I didn't wait
For you to hit me back

These my daily thoughts
I hope you heard them
Hurtin my heart
From when I started to care again
Stone faced monster turned to the world and yet
I'm left cracked and mishandled
But I'm the one to blame
Exiled myself and pushed all away
Care to the wind
Wings towards the sun
Icarus my moniker
Burn the other one



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Writer(s): Milan Stijepovic
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