After You

I thought of you today
Catching glimpse of the rays
Streaming through the clouds
Of another winter day
I feel the painful twisting
Of your image in my brain
Showing up to bring me down
As The picture fade to gray

But I watch you with the earning
Of a dying bodies breath
Recognizing every lie
In everything you said
But I can't look away from you
As your gaze passes through
It's hopeless but it's true
That I can't keep
Running after you

I fake that it's not bad
That you feel so far away
Refuse to give you joy
Of making me this way
I brace for the moment
Of you waiting by the door
I keep my eyes averted
As I'm staring at the floor

But I watch you with the earning
Of a dying bodies breath
Recognizing every lie
In everything you said
But I can't look away from you
As your gaze passes through
It's hopeless but it's true
That I can't keep
Running after you

Falling again
Falling my way through
I'm falling again
Landing right next to
I ache from the stretch
Of the tether pulling thin
To end back with you
Would be my greatest sin
But your eyes meet mine
And I'm falling again
Can we at least try
For the 100th time

But I keep my options open
As ob'serv the mess I made
Purging without knowing
As my choices fall away

What to trash and what to keep
When I think of all I've sown
I keep rising from the deep
And I can't keep
Running after you
Running after you
Running after you