Call of the Void

Feeling it calling me
Feeling it calls me home

I was driving along the street yeah
When i was seeing the edge of the barrier
When i felt the feeling i never felt before
Never felt such desire don't know what im feeling it for

Got seduced to look down in the dark
The feeling i achieved is hard to describe
A mix of insecurity anxiety and thoughts of suicide
I don't know what's going on the sun aint shine bright

Anymore tryna ignore the whore that came back in my mind
But but its too hard i cant fight
Bring me back lead me back to the light
Bring Me back Lead me back to the light
I don't wanna commit suicide

That's why i turned around
Held Back the tears
Didn't cry
I stayed strong against the feeling i cant define
Rather suffering than go fucking die
Rather feel pain then attempt suicide

After some hours i got back
Looking the name for the feeling up on the internet
And then I saw it the Call of the Void
It's the call of the nameless
It's the call to destroy everything what you felt and what You will feel maybe I should Deal with the pain maybe I should obey the Void
The call of the Void is calling

Feeling it calling me
Feeling it calls me home

I was driving along the street yeah
When i was seeing the edge of the barrier
When i felt the feeling i never felt before
Never felt such desire don't know what im feeling it for

The problem is that I don't now the answer
To the question
I don't even know what my worth
So how Should know If im worth living
How should i know Anything thats about living
I just know how to use my Liver and my lungs
To numb the outside
If I would jump
Id hurt the outsiders inside
So both sides deal with pain
Both sides deal with sorrow
How should I decide
Everyday tomorrow