Unnecessarily Complicating, It Seems

I've begun to question if I confused lust for love
You were what my dark heart had deprived of

A sense of validation and a silhouette of security
A secretive game only to end and propose a possibility

Rejuvenated sentiments ignited the dreadful ideation
Corrupting my insides to cope with the suffocation

I'm so sorry for breaking both of your hearts
Betrayal from each side and we are all at fault
And I am destined to be a scapegoat
Just put an end to this and tighten my throat

I can't comprehend what is actually true
No one else has come forward with proof
Tortuous for long and I chose to believe you
And I did move forward
But not in the direction you had desired for
My vicious words had no effect
And you were still prideful and hoping for more
Repetitious and I'm trying
To envision a future where I'm not dangling above the floor

I'm so sorry for breaking both of your hearts
Betrayal from each side and we are all at fault
And I am destined to be a scapegoat
Just put an end to this and tighten my throat

Obsession had subjugated your logic
I despise your actions as much as mine
Felt as if you turned the few I had against me
I lost and exiled them, retreating to our misery
I think I'm only thankful for your harmony
It was wrong to be disgusted by your flaws
I don't deserve you anymore, simply because

I couldn't let go
I did use you for much too long
Agonized by the iniquitous thought
Now I miss you and I forever will care
I'm sorry I can't love like my first or in general
And I just won't hurt you anymore, I won't dare
I couldn't let anything, anyone go

I'm aware it's late and the damage is done
I suppose I really am Lost in the Dark
I cherish us more now that we're apart
Believe me, you are beautiful
Right from the start

And every second of each day
I try to eradicate your face and name
From the confines of my ill-fated brain

From the confines of ill-fated brain