Programmed Not To Cry

I'm not a robot
I compartmentalize
Shove it deep, deep down
Try your best but you'll never catch it in my eyes
You say you want a man's man
Not a big emotional display
Well, thanks to my father, and his father
And his pops before I can smile while I walk away

You'll never see it on my face
Though you've left our love to die
And it's not that I don't care
It's just I was programmed not to cry
So you can burn it to the ground
Say every moment's been a lie
I'm only what the world has taught me
And I was programmed not to cry

I don't need a life raft, I don't need a life vest
'Cause when you took a hard right, I just made a hard left
You want a big reaction, your swimming pool eyes wet
But something I was not shown is something I cannot forget

Or I won't allow
If I lock up regret
Then I can lock you out, I know how

You'll never see it on my face
Though you've left our love to die
And it's not that I don't care
It's just I was programmed not to cry
So you can burn it to the ground
Say every moment's been a lie
I'm only what the world has taught me
And I was programmed not to cry

'Cause I might drown, drown, drown
If I let my guard down, down, down
But I can't drown, drown, drown
If I don't know how
I might drown, drown, drown
If I let my guard down, down, down
But I can't drown, drown, drown
If I don't know how (oh, I don't know how)

In an ocean (of nothing)
About to go under
Or will I keep treading right here
'Til the day I die?
If I could be open
I can't help but wonder
And I can't break this streak
Can't let myself be weak

You'll never see it on my face
Though you left our love to die
It's not that I don't care
It's just I was programmed not to cry
You can burn it to the ground
Say every moment's been a lie
I'm only what the world has taught me