Nights

I will twist my hair in knots and think a thousand awful thoughts
That all compete and accumulate
To the worst case
With terrifying precision
I undermine all my decisions
How am I still living this way at my age?

Will you still love me even when I'm not okay?
The nights are long and I'm so often afraid
Will you still love me even if I cannot change?
Will you still be here
When I'm awake?

I'll lie awake until I can't take it
All these flaws, all my own making
All I should have said
While scared of a silhouette
An outline in a hallway, it never ends
A hand on my mouth in the house that I grew up in
I still dream of the waiting, the impending violence
The I love yous, the I'm sorrys
That broke the silence

Hey now
Hey now
I want to dream it's over



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Writer(s): Anne Mansfield
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