On My Deathbed There's A Full Page (You Don't Get To Read It)

not sure I really wanna know
what you're scheming
you'd never really go out of your way
to see me in the flesh and
I bet I could kill another night
with the light
from the screen
waiting for the four

not sure I really wanna know
what I'm leaving alone
always take another look
as if it's gonna grow
gonna grow gonna grow

but the dark is always lit up by your darkness
somehow I never hardened
on paper I'm a damn fool

not sure I really wanna know
if my conscience could
take another blow I know
I'm full of nonsensical poems

but the dark is always lit up by your darkness
somehow I never hardened
on paper I'm a damn fool

Do I come across impatient?
always get back so quick
the truth is I waited waited waited
it got so twisted in my head

oh the dark is always lit up by your darkness
somehow I never hardened
on paper im a damn fool
the dark is always lit up by your darkness
somehow I never hardened
on my deathbed there's a full page
you don't get to read