Enemy

So much room for improvement
It's hard to be a pearl when you grew up in the sewage
A town that breaks the best of em, but some come to view it
But still I roamed the sidewalks, the streets would say I'm truant
Partially, I need my heart but maybe it's misplaced
I wonder if people can see the pain in my face
What a disgrace
I entered the race, not knowing that my mind was at a different pace
So when my bitches make the kissy face
I question intentions, they show me receipts
About past relationships, so if I make ends meet
We can start from the beginning, watch our egos compete
Separate the intermediate, and with the elite
I see, too much defeat just for me to go back
So if I'm quiet, we can try it as I fade to the back
I find happiness in math I miss, I count up my past
So subtract your own opinions, we can add up the facts
I know
I need to slow my roll and look in the rear view
Your energy's reflective of the friends that come near you
Respect could never come from the people that fear you
I drank too much liquor to remember, maybe beer too
I have nightmares from the missions I conducted
As long as them niggas know I ain't the one to fuck with
I plan to hit the beach with my vices in a bucket
She fucks with all my flaws but I think that she loves it
I know

I'm still looking for the answers to life
I question God on his plans while I'm sleeping at night
Never said that it was righteous but I feel like I'm lost
There's a price on my soul, what's the cost?
Now I'm searching for my answers in the darkest of places
The truth is right in front of me, I'm too scared to face it
Nothing comes by chance, if you notice the placement
I'm my biggest enemy, and that's the basics

I got lost in emotions, so if I say I'm not open
There's a reason I'm teasin, I think I'm missing the Ocean
The view is nice from Heaven, but when I was in limbo
I feel for a shorty going to hell for smoking indo
And that's when I wondered how I was even informed
On my destination, Satan wants to watch me perform
I look at my reflection, and my mentals been worn
Down from years of drinking a forty ounce when I mourn
Maybe I could handle it differently, but listen G
I feel my heart is scared from the shit my city did to me
Mentally I broke down, cause if you see me physically
You'll see I passed Anatomy but struggled on my chemistry
And then these women wonder why I'm secluded
Because if you can't get me right then I'm the only one to do it
Depended on these woman for everything in my reach
But happiness just wasn't my focus, and now to me
I gotta pass these lessons to my child, it's wild
I lost so much hope, so my effort to smile
Was at an all time high, somehow I don't know why
I'm even alive, cause lately what it takes for me to cry
I'm almost on the brink daily, somebody save me
My lifestyles been too crazy, I had a baby
But still I couldn't get my shit together
But I promise everything will get better

I'm still looking for the answers to life
I question God on his plans while I'm sleeping at night
Never said that it was righteous but I feel like I'm lost
There's a price on my soul, what's the cost?
Now I'm searching for my answers in the darkest of places
The truth is right in front of me, I'm too scared to face it
Nothing comes by chance, if you notice the placement
I'm my biggest enemy, and that's the basics

I'm still looking for the answers to life
I question God on his plans while I'm sleeping at night
Never said that it was righteous but I feel like I'm lost
There's a price on my soul, what's the cost?
Now I'm searching for my answers in the darkest of places
The truth is right in front of me, I'm too scared to face it
Nothing comes by chance, if you notice the placement
I'm my biggest enemy, and that's the basics