SUSPENDED

Suspended my ass, you know they could not handle me,
Maybe I just couldn't handle myself
All of the rage, built up inside
Started not to care about anything else
So focused on me that I lost myself
Sometimes my mind is a living hell
Insecurities, anxiety,
Tried to keep it inside to myself
I had to snap, there was nothing else
Obsess over anger, it's hard not to dwell
They don't understand, but it's fine, oh well
Imagined some things that I shouldn't tell
I tried to just go back in my shell
Talk about your problems, be careful who you tell
Even now still, I'm not doing so well
But that's on me, I have to prevail

They sent me away cause the doctor felt threatened
A week in a unit? But I just spoke my mind
They wanted to help me, but they made me feel worse
Sent away for thoughts I had all the time
Now I feel like I have PTSD
I always get anxious when I see the police
Imagine trying to piss while you're cuffed to a bed
I mean I don't understand what went on through their head
FaceTime doc said I was good to go
But the police told me that I couldn't go home
I never threatened anyone, the school wouldn't listen
My thoughts too violent, that's why I got suspended
But when I got home, I really felt so alone
It's hard to stay motivated when you're so isolated
The school was in the wrong and that can't be debated
Depression and anger, I was just filled with hatred

Suspended my ass, you know they could not handle me,
Maybe I just couldn't handle myself
All of the rage, built up inside
Started not to care about anything else
So focused on me that I lost myself
Sometimes my mind is a living hell
Insecurities, anxiety,
Tried to keep it inside to myself
I had to snap, there was nothing else
Obsess over anger, it's hard not to dwell
They don't understand, but it's fine, oh well
Imagined some things that I shouldn't tell
I tried to just go back in my shell
Talk about your problems, be careful who you tell
Even now still, I'm not doing so well
But that's on me, I have to prevail



Credits
Writer(s): I. Porter
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