This is me.

I apologize once again cause I'm not what you want me to...
I tried so hard to make you all proud but that's long, long overdue...
The end is close I feel it to my core
When I play these fucking chords...

I wake in the morning, just another fucking day
I'm feeling like a dog cause I'm about to start to stray
Or maybe I should be driving on the highway far away
I need to stop consuming or one day they'll say "he passed away"
Giving my mind a break,
So take anywhere, just take me far away from here...
Sometimes I ask myself what kind of person I turned out to be?
Cause I love money, liquor, drugs, and all banalities
Don't get me wrong there are two guys living inside of me
The one that's clean, that cares for you and gives you honesty
I try to be the best version of me,
And yeah, exactly I'm talking family
The one that's funny, crazy, witty, and just a little bit silly
One thing I truly wanna say to my father is I'm sorry
I may be not enough for you,
A lazy fuck up got no excuse
To me you're everything and that's the fucking truth

I apologize once again cause I'm not what you want me to...
I tried so hard to make you all proud but that's long, long overdue...
The end is close I feel it to my core
When I play these fucking chords...

I wake up in the morning, I sit up right in my bed
A lot of thoughts I got, what's going on inside my head?
No hangover cause you know that I'm a little pothead
And from the window comes a light that looks like kinda red
I pop a Xan cause I just start stress
And yeah, I know, I should be using less...
The excesses got me, but I skip my thoughts
My demons haunting but I need stop the drugs
'Member that day at the beach?
Walking around under the sun and then we kissed
I thought that we were meant together then we flipped
You were like a drug to me, every time I sleep I see you strip
I wish you happiness, I wish you find a real good kid
Disrespect is outta table, that's something we already did
Faded, writing like a poet everything I've lived
Faded, writing like a poet everything I've lived...

I apologize once again cause I'm not what you want me to...
I tried so hard to make you all proud but that's long, long overdue...
The end is close I feel it to my core
When I play these fucking chords...

I tried to prove that you raised a young king,
Sorry momma that was as well what I think
I know you don't like the poison I put inside my body
The only thing that calms my nerves and gives me glory
The only thing that calms my nerves and gives me glory...

Yeah...



Credits
Writer(s): Jose Aguiñaga
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