Failing Upwards

I have my fate in my hands again
I'm thinking of how I'm a mess to him
Wondering how I'm ever gonna put up with me

I have my heart in my head again
I'm lost as a child can be
'Cause I wander around my neighbourhood
Hoping the answer will appear in front of me

I'm a little uptight sometimes
I don't like feeling like a trophy wife
But I'll wait in the car at the end of the night 'til you arrive
You feel a little misguided 'cause you misread my alliance
And you still think I'm against you in every way
Well, I am today

And I know you're not trying to break my heart
But you're doing a bang up job
And I told you I'm not trying to lose your trust
But at least I'm failing upwards

I'm all alone at my desk again
Making sense of the mess I left for him
Thinking that I'm the only one who thinks all these things
You feel a little bit tired 'cause you're trying not to call me a liar
And you still think I'm against you in every way
Well, I am today

And I know you're not trying to break my heart
But you're doing a bang up job
And I told you, I'm not trying to lose your trust
But at least I'm failing upwards
At least I'm failing upwards

And I know that you second guess all of your love notes
When you see a photo of him in my yearbook
And I know that you struggle to keep all our memories safe
But I never asked him to stay and you bring him back anyway

And I know
You're not trying to break my heart
But you're doing a bang up job
And I told you, I'm not trying to lose your trust
But at least I'm failing upwards

Failing, failing
Failing upwards
Failing, failing
Failing upwards